June 26th, 2009

I just need a hug and to know that my summer isn’t going to be a total waste.

This summer was supposed to be the be-all-end-all of summers and now I’m stuck in bed for the entire thing. I can’t take it. I can’t take feeling so disconnected from the world and the city. I’m not someone who can be this isolated from everything. This summer was supposed to be incredible. Now I don’t know what it is going to end up being.

I’m trying to have a positive outlook, I promise. It’s just really difficult, given the circumstances. I can’t work, I can’t enjoy the city, I’m not seeing anyone. This feels like prison.